This isn't wise
Sep. 25th, 2009 05:22 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
splinteredstarI think I'm going to do NaNo this year.
I know, this isn't smart. Not during my first semester of college. Not when I'll be studying for exams. Not when I'm still adjusting to the social change. I'm probably going to either fail or burn out.
But I want to do it. I really want to, but I'm afraid. Which makes me want to do it even more. It's like Yuki from Fruit Baskets joining the Student Council. I want do to it *because* I'm afraid.
Fuck you, Fear.
I'm not doing this purely to conquer my fear, mind you. This year...maybe it's the mind-opening of college. Maybe it's the way I've been pushing myself this year. But I really want to do NaNo this year, and if I don't I'll feel like I'm chickening out.
I even know what idea I'll be using. Either EMET (sort of Jewish Mythology - steampunk mashup) or possibly Freecloud (which is me stringing old David Bowie songs into a story) I'll spend all of October organizing my thoughts, and hopefully I'll be ready. (And yes, flist, you'll get to listen to all my rambling if if you want.)
It's not wise, and it won't be easy.
But I'm going to do it anyway.
I know, this isn't smart. Not during my first semester of college. Not when I'll be studying for exams. Not when I'm still adjusting to the social change. I'm probably going to either fail or burn out.
But I want to do it. I really want to, but I'm afraid. Which makes me want to do it even more. It's like Yuki from Fruit Baskets joining the Student Council. I want do to it *because* I'm afraid.
Fuck you, Fear.
I'm not doing this purely to conquer my fear, mind you. This year...maybe it's the mind-opening of college. Maybe it's the way I've been pushing myself this year. But I really want to do NaNo this year, and if I don't I'll feel like I'm chickening out.
I even know what idea I'll be using. Either EMET (sort of Jewish Mythology - steampunk mashup) or possibly Freecloud (which is me stringing old David Bowie songs into a story) I'll spend all of October organizing my thoughts, and hopefully I'll be ready. (And yes, flist, you'll get to listen to all my rambling if if you want.)
It's not wise, and it won't be easy.
But I'm going to do it anyway.
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Date: 2009-09-27 08:29 pm (UTC)I'll be rambling about it soon enough, I assure you. Probably in the next couple of days - possibly tonight, if I can get enough of my thoughts in order. I'm going to go with EMET - I like the idea better, and I've worked out more of the mechanics and I just have a better idea of what's going on. (Not a good enough idea of what's going on, but a better one.)Plus - writing what you're comfortable with is a good idea, and I'm (horrifyingly enough, perhaps) comfortable with god complexes and crazies.
Freecloud is just me going, "...Hey. I think the guy from this song could the same guy from this song...and maybe he's singing to the girl from that song..." And I don't really know what I'm going to do with it. Perhaps next year, for that one.
*has written up list of drabble prompts for self, and will probably start working on those soon too*
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