This isn't wise

[splinteredstar]

I think I'm going to do NaNo this year.

I know, this isn't smart. Not during my first semester of college. Not when I'll be studying for exams. Not when I'm still adjusting to the social change. I'm probably going to either fail or burn out.

But I want to do it. I really want to, but I'm afraid. Which makes me want to do it even more. It's like Yuki from Fruit Baskets joining the Student Council. I want do to it *because* I'm afraid.

Fuck you, Fear.

I'm not doing this purely to conquer my fear, mind you. This year...maybe it's the mind-opening of college. Maybe it's the way I've been pushing myself this year. But I really want to do NaNo this year, and if I don't I'll feel like I'm chickening out.

I even know what idea I'll be using. Either EMET (sort of Jewish Mythology - steampunk mashup) or possibly Freecloud (which is me stringing old David Bowie songs into a story) I'll spend all of October organizing my thoughts, and hopefully I'll be ready. (And yes, flist, you'll get to listen to all my rambling if if you want.)

It's not wise, and it won't be easy.

But I'm going to do it anyway.

Comments

[speaky-bean.livejournal.com]

I like your attitude! Listen, I shouldn't be doing it either. I'm taking a weekend job, I have to apply for teacher's certification programs, I have to write my senior project and pass two other classes. There are a lot of things I need to do, but I'm too excited about NaNo this year not to try and fit it in too. So many of my friends are doing it for the very first time, and I have a story I want to write. I know I shouldn't, and the idea of fitting in all these things that I need to do is scary, but I want to face that challenge.

Honestly, even though college does take some getting used to, the first semester is not typically so hard that you can't do it if you really set your mind to it. My first semester, I had an extremely time-consuming extracurricular, LARP. It ended up being miserable and I quit, but it was miserable because the people who were in it sucked. I had time for it, for the most part. I didn't do NaNo that year because I forgot about it, but I would've had time if I wanted to. The next two years, I did it just fine. What you can handle is up to you, but if you think you want to do NaNo, I support you entirely. ♥ I can't wait to see what you come up with! And stringing David Bowie songs into a story is an awesome idea.

[starsplinter.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I'm nervous, but it's a good kind of nervous. (You know what I mean.) It's sort of a 'pushing self' deal and sort of a, 'well, I probably won't finish it if I don't force myself...' Thank you for the encouragement. *hugs*

I'll be rambling about it soon enough, I assure you. Probably in the next couple of days - possibly tonight, if I can get enough of my thoughts in order. I'm going to go with EMET - I like the idea better, and I've worked out more of the mechanics and I just have a better idea of what's going on. (Not a good enough idea of what's going on, but a better one.)Plus - writing what you're comfortable with is a good idea, and I'm (horrifyingly enough, perhaps) comfortable with god complexes and crazies.

Freecloud is just me going, "...Hey. I think the guy from this song could the same guy from this song...and maybe he's singing to the girl from that song..." And I don't really know what I'm going to do with it. Perhaps next year, for that one.

*has written up list of drabble prompts for self, and will probably start working on those soon too*


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