Raving mad and somewhat slightly dazed

I think I'm going to come out to my dad. 

He's the only one in the family that doesn't know. I want to tell him, before someone else does - I think, if he feels like we've been keeping it a secret and he finds out from someone else.... that'd be a hell of a betrayal, you know? But how am I supposed to do this? 

And - okay. I'm, in general, against the whole thing of coming out announcements and parties and shit. They annoy me, on principle. I don't have cancer, I'm not getting married, and I'm not moving away. Why the fuck should I make a big deal? Why should I attach a disclaimer to my own existence? 

But. Family's different, I guess. Sooner rather than later, you know? Not sure how to bring it up, not sure what he'll do. I'm kind of nervous, but... it's like all the Other Stuff in my brain has shut up and I just have this steel arrow of, yes, this is what I need to do. 

I'll tell you how it goes.