Ghosts in the bathroom mirror

[splinteredstar]

I've always had a love-hate relationship with the paranormal. With ghost stories and horror movies. On the one hand, it fascinates me. On the other... I will be fucking terrified of every shadow for the next six days or so. I think it terrifies me so much because it could be real, I think - I have no problem believing that I live in a world with ghosts that sneak into bedrooms and strangle people to death.

It *might* happen, you never know.

More than that, maybe, it's not something that I have any way to fight. I'm not afraid of physical threats - my dogs are protective and I'm not a fainting flower. I'd do some damage to any *physical* enemy. But I can't fight a ghost - I can't punch out spirits. Faith is one weapon - but it's one that I can't wield, because I've never been able to fully believe. (See my previous rant on religion.)

But it fascinates me. This world out there that has brushed me, more than once - confirmation that no, I'm not crazy, or at least not alone; other people have seen the things I've seen and felt the things I felt. It's a relief, really, and I do enjoy them.

Even if I regret it as soon as the sun goes down.

Comments

[serria.livejournal.com]

Ooh, I know how you feel. On one hand, I'm a pretty staunch atheist. I mean that in the sense that logically, I don't believe in paranormal or supernatural. I absolutely recognize that there is probably (certainly) a lot about this world we don't know, and in that case there could be something unknown or even magical. But I tend to err on the side of logic in doubt.

But after watching scary movies, I do get paranoid. lol Especially at night. Or here's my big fear, as weird as it sounds. I get afraid that I'm so affected and scared of the movie/whatever I just watched, that I'll develop schizophrenia and start actually seeing things that aren't there. Ooh, and then those awesome moments when you're trying to go to sleep but afraid to close your eyes because you know you're going to picture something scary once you do. XD

I'm a wimp. haha

[starsplinter.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it's more problematic for me... well, I've had "experiences" that could technically be termed paranormal (it's a... long story) but could also be termed overactive imagination at play. (If you avoid the fact that everyone agreed seperately afterwards... like I said, long story. Might post about it later)

So those sorts of things are to me at least theoretically possible. Which makes it worse.