In only sort of chornological order
Aug. 24th, 2013 06:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
splinteredstarI got a B in calc 2. Woot!
I am drinking beer for the first time. I don't think I like beer. Idk. Maybe it'll grow on me.
Short story is in progress. I was stuck for a while but then I got frustrated and grumpy and drank hot chocolate with peppermint schnapps in it until I could write again. Not particularly pleased to have resorted to that, but hey, it did work.
Yay, being legal to drink.
Monday was a shit show. I was planning on calling one of the places I applied to, so I could follow up on it. But I ended having a panic attack before I could even call the number. And while I was in tears on the couch, my mom chooses this moment to bring up therapy. Which is an idea that makes me freak out in the first place. So I stomps off and end up saying some very stupid things to my best friend while I was flailing, and that ended up in a fight. (I've since apologized.)
I spent most of Monday in tears, and then I lost my house keys.
Don't worry, I found them the next day. On my car seat. Where I'd looked four times the night before.
Monday really shouldn't have been allowed to happen.
Fortunately, after that, things were bound to improve. (Though Tuesday wast mostly spent curled up a little ball.) I've gotten in contact with all my roommates and said hello. Sharing a room with a German student, which might be interesting.
Also I just mixed my beer with fruit punch, which helped. It's way too sour otherwise. It's like trying to drink wheat.
Yesterday I went out with best friend for her birthday. It involved wandering around pet stores with her being more knowledgeable than some of the people who worked there and me making friends with random people's dogs, attempting to find a decent cannoli, and raiding a bookstore and buying more books than I can really justify.
One of the things I bought was Codename: Sailor V, which is apparently a sort of pilot for Sailor Moon? I wasn't sure what the order was, so I briefly googled and that was the best idea I had. I have heard good things about them.
I think I am going to try cranberry juice next.
Also, classes start Monday. I am not enthused.
I am drinking beer for the first time. I don't think I like beer. Idk. Maybe it'll grow on me.
Short story is in progress. I was stuck for a while but then I got frustrated and grumpy and drank hot chocolate with peppermint schnapps in it until I could write again. Not particularly pleased to have resorted to that, but hey, it did work.
Yay, being legal to drink.
Monday was a shit show. I was planning on calling one of the places I applied to, so I could follow up on it. But I ended having a panic attack before I could even call the number. And while I was in tears on the couch, my mom chooses this moment to bring up therapy. Which is an idea that makes me freak out in the first place. So I stomps off and end up saying some very stupid things to my best friend while I was flailing, and that ended up in a fight. (I've since apologized.)
I spent most of Monday in tears, and then I lost my house keys.
Don't worry, I found them the next day. On my car seat. Where I'd looked four times the night before.
Monday really shouldn't have been allowed to happen.
Fortunately, after that, things were bound to improve. (Though Tuesday wast mostly spent curled up a little ball.) I've gotten in contact with all my roommates and said hello. Sharing a room with a German student, which might be interesting.
Also I just mixed my beer with fruit punch, which helped. It's way too sour otherwise. It's like trying to drink wheat.
Yesterday I went out with best friend for her birthday. It involved wandering around pet stores with her being more knowledgeable than some of the people who worked there and me making friends with random people's dogs, attempting to find a decent cannoli, and raiding a bookstore and buying more books than I can really justify.
One of the things I bought was Codename: Sailor V, which is apparently a sort of pilot for Sailor Moon? I wasn't sure what the order was, so I briefly googled and that was the best idea I had. I have heard good things about them.
I think I am going to try cranberry juice next.
Also, classes start Monday. I am not enthused.
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Date: 2013-08-25 01:40 am (UTC)But I ended having a panic attack before I could even call the number.
This is very familiar to me. I'm so sorry. I know how much it sucks. I hope things pick up for you.
(P.S. I've been in therapy on and off for over fifteen years. If you ever want to discuss it with me, I'd be happy to talk about it. Or not. Whatever makes you feel best.)
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Date: 2013-08-25 02:24 am (UTC)Yeah. It was just a very long long week. I'm just hoping that one of the applications I put in actually seemed worthwhile enough for people to check me out. It's that whole "but why would anyone be interested in me" deal.
(Best friend managed to kick a bit of sense into me on the issue. I just have issues with failure anyway, so going somewhere just to explain how much of a fuck up I am feels like a fucking bad idea. But I probably should.)
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Date: 2013-08-25 02:46 am (UTC)And congrats on Calc test!