one week of class

wonder if I can make posts a weekly thing. might be interesting.

So I've had a week of class. Seems to be going well so far. Most of my profs I've had before. My adviser is still nice, favorite lunatic prof is still a lunatic (engineering and opened class with french classical music. twice.) One prof I haven't had before is my calculus prof, and he's an adorable tiny enthusiastic Asian man. He does not bounce but it is a near thing.

Am trying to be friendly and outgoing this time around, with like, roommates and things. I normally hermit myself away and only do the normal "hi bye" things, but this lot seem friendly and aren't weirded out by me yet, so. I have an instinctual "everyone will hate me" response, and I'm testing that out by actually giving them a chance to like me.

I'm also joining clubs on campus. Though I will fully admit that's more a "shit, need to pad out my resume" response than any friendliness. Though I am interested in meeting other engineers.

On that note, have sent my resume to several places. No bites yet. Am trying to not feel like it's a judgement on my worth as a person.

Thanks to the mess of last week, I'm actually looking into local therapists. I've reached the "shit, I am not dealing with this am I" point, and acknowledged that I might need outside help. (Thank you, to everyone who encouraged me to do so.) I've found one that's promising. Apparently deals with gay and lesbian issues, which I am hoping means inclusion and not conversion therapy.

Still working on short story. Will probably post it when I've finished the first draft.