That was part of what hit me so hard about it - the feeling that no matter what I said I would have been branded as "stubborn" or "non compliant" or "unwilling to be helped", any objection rendered invalid due to the fact that I was the one saying it. My opinions and feelings were just symptoms to be corrected, and he knew better than I did what was going on in my head. He was the Psychologist, after all, and I was just there to accept his knowledge.
It was.... unpleasant.
Yeah, some other people have talked about how the experience was helpful to them. The general response to this particular therapist has been, "he said what?! that /asshole/." I don't know, I'll give it a month to get used to the idea and try someone else.
I canceled my appointment. I chickened out of saying specifically why, but I did say that some of his comments rubbed me wrong. The lady at the counter was very concerned and gentle, and reassured me that they were always there in case of emergencies. She gave me her card. I felt guilty for making her worried but glad that she cared.
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Date: 2014-11-09 01:23 am (UTC)That was part of what hit me so hard about it - the feeling that no matter what I said I would have been branded as "stubborn" or "non compliant" or "unwilling to be helped", any objection rendered invalid due to the fact that I was the one saying it. My opinions and feelings were just symptoms to be corrected, and he knew better than I did what was going on in my head. He was the Psychologist, after all, and I was just there to accept his knowledge.
It was.... unpleasant.
Yeah, some other people have talked about how the experience was helpful to them. The general response to this particular therapist has been, "he said what?! that /asshole/." I don't know, I'll give it a month to get used to the idea and try someone else.
I canceled my appointment. I chickened out of saying specifically why, but I did say that some of his comments rubbed me wrong. The lady at the counter was very concerned and gentle, and reassured me that they were always there in case of emergencies. She gave me her card. I felt guilty for making her worried but glad that she cared.