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squad fic: prequel trilogy part one
so. squad fic.
This timeline takes place during the prequel trilogy. Like... after phantom menace, before attack of the clones. Anakin is about 14.
This is the most elaborate timeline. This is the one that is closest to being an actual novel. This timeline is /25k and 117 word pages long/.
I never even wrote Phasma's plotline, and there's still like a quarter of this plot missing.
I am... pretty sure that if I tried to put it all in a single post dw would have some Concerns. So I found a decent breaking point and I'll put the first one here, and the other... later. (I'm still thinking about writing the last bits.)
So. Prequel trilogy. This is not a pro jedi story. I am not a pro jedi person. Tw: Jedi are bad at consent and also kind of ableist.
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This timeline takes place during the prequel trilogy. Like... after phantom menace, before attack of the clones. Anakin is about 14.
This is the most elaborate timeline. This is the one that is closest to being an actual novel. This timeline is /25k and 117 word pages long/.
I never even wrote Phasma's plotline, and there's still like a quarter of this plot missing.
I am... pretty sure that if I tried to put it all in a single post dw would have some Concerns. So I found a decent breaking point and I'll put the first one here, and the other... later. (I'm still thinking about writing the last bits.)
So. Prequel trilogy. This is not a pro jedi story. I am not a pro jedi person. Tw: Jedi are bad at consent and also kind of ableist.
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squad fic: misc
there's another timeline of this, but i'd have to find references and i honestly haven't had time. So instead, have the misc file: bits of dynamic, snippets of context, A Holiday. If this were an anime these would be the slice of life episodes.
Ft a lot of poe and a brief reference to past poe/hux. also canonical levels of child abuse and Imperial fuckery.
Ft a lot of poe and a brief reference to past poe/hux. also canonical levels of child abuse and Imperial fuckery.
( misc )
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squad fic: post OT
Squadfic, set in a nebulous and vaguely EU based post rotj. Ft solo family ridiculousness and a lassie faire approach to canon.
( squaaaad )
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squad fic: smol
Today in squad fic, I pretend that I can write a preteen. Squad goes back in time to when Ben and Armitage were 10 and 14 respectively.
tw: canonical levels of child neglect, me shouting at the adults in Ben's life a bit, and snoke.
tw: canonical levels of child neglect, me shouting at the adults in Ben's life a bit, and snoke.
( smoooool )
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squad fic: tlj overlap
this is a shorter section. just a couple of scenes without an overarching plot. really it's just that i watched tlj and the squad in my head had Opinions, and their Opinions made me laugh. Ft some good squad hux lines, discussions on the kylux marriage, and poe's complicated ethical math.
This is one of the timeline jumps where people are duplicated into separate versions of themselves, unlike the tfa version. looking at it I think one of these scenes could be misc but oh well,i'll leave it here.
( tlj )
This is one of the timeline jumps where people are duplicated into separate versions of themselves, unlike the tfa version. looking at it I think one of these scenes could be misc but oh well,i'll leave it here.
( tlj )
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Squad fic: tfa overlap
Squad fic: timeline one
My true loves are multiverses and time travel, so. that is what happens here. This.... technically isn't one fic. There are snippets of... eh, two, possibly three fics here, depending on how the plot goes. The different iterations are indicated. They all start in the same place, though: Squad gets transported to where they were approximately a year before TFA starts
( squad fic )
My true loves are multiverses and time travel, so. that is what happens here. This.... technically isn't one fic. There are snippets of... eh, two, possibly three fics here, depending on how the plot goes. The different iterations are indicated. They all start in the same place, though: Squad gets transported to where they were approximately a year before TFA starts
( squad fic )
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squad fic: set up
Whokay. So. I have had, since shortly after The Force Awakens, a long running headfic. Occasionally I will ramble at various people, most often [Bad username or unknown identity: ktula,] about the scene that is currently going on in my head, but beyond that it will never be any sort of Real Fic. Because it would be less fun that way.
But I still enjoy them, so I decided to share them here.
tw for this section: limb loss, off screen torture and amputation,
( set up )
But I still enjoy them, so I decided to share them here.
tw for this section: limb loss, off screen torture and amputation,
( set up )
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today in fics I'll never write, vol two
the rest of the rey concepts with ![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
ktula
In this one, Armitage Hux is abandoned on Jakku and manages to make a stable life, of sorts, there. Until one day he sees a young girl staring up at a departing ship and weeping...
ktula In this one, Armitage Hux is abandoned on Jakku and manages to make a stable life, of sorts, there. Until one day he sees a young girl staring up at a departing ship and weeping...
Today in fics I'll never write
Sometimes,
ktula and I are bored at our respective workplaces and we talk stories and come up with ideas. Some of these ideas either get turned into fic (such as the vampire au) or we want to do so (one day, burning man.) But some of them are in the range of "Well, it's cool as hell, but." But I still keep the transcripts, because they're awesome and fun to reread. And I decided to post them here, because they're not quite real fics, but they are cool as hell.
Today's entry is a Rey Solo/Darkside Rey au
( Rey au )
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character concept
i scribbled this while bored at work one day. not sure what to do with it, but i've been told it could work as a dnd character.
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I'm not sure what she is, but suspect she's some sort of automation.
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I'm not sure what she is, but suspect she's some sort of automation.
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tiny luke + leia piece
A response to their last scene together in tlj
Tiny character moment I realized
When Luke and Leia were talking
He says "I'm sorry" and she says "I know you are"
She doesn't say "I forgive you"
(She'd told him once, in one of their rare arguments - she'd hissed it out, her teeth tight and her voice low - I don't have to forgive him, I don't have to forgive /anyone/-
And Luke had smiled, and let it be, and said that he'd never ask for hers then.
It had been a joke, at the time)
Tiny character moment I realized
When Luke and Leia were talking
He says "I'm sorry" and she says "I know you are"
She doesn't say "I forgive you"
(She'd told him once, in one of their rare arguments - she'd hissed it out, her teeth tight and her voice low - I don't have to forgive him, I don't have to forgive /anyone/-
And Luke had smiled, and let it be, and said that he'd never ask for hers then.
It had been a joke, at the time)
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Fic: "Forgotten pieces"
Well, let's kick this off with a Rey fic that I always kinda wanna polish up and make publishable, but haven't ever gotten around to doing so.
Rey, pre-TFA. TW for canon child abuse and neglect
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Rey, pre-TFA. TW for canon child abuse and neglect
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Hello, y'all
So this is a place that exists.
Will probably use this for posting links to complete fics, incomplete fics that I never plan on finishing, and the occasional personal essay.
Hope to see ya around
Will probably use this for posting links to complete fics, incomplete fics that I never plan on finishing, and the occasional personal essay.
Hope to see ya around
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so the supervisor i normally get along with made a gay/disabled joke today. referred to california as "the land of fruits and nuts" - look at all the queers and crazies they've got over there, isn't it weird? we definitely don't have any of those here. we're /normal/ here.
fuck.
*rubs eyes*
I need this job. I need health insurance or I will die. I need to be able to get therapy, I need to be able to buy meds, I need to be able to fix my teeth. I have bills. This is my first engineering job - if I fuck this up, I'll be pretty damn fucked for a while.
It's legal to be fired for homosexuality in this state.
I need this job.
And that means not picking fights with supervisors who seem to like me otherwise. That means not rocking the boat, at least not until I can be sure that I'm not gonna get thrown overboard for it. That means smiling and playing along nicely and goddamn it
I feel like I coward. Don't I have a duty to my siblings? Don't I have a duty to confront this shit where I find it? If I let is slide, aren't I a part of the problem?
Fuck.
Okay. Options.
1. Talk to him about it. Risk outing myself. Come off as "over sensitive" and no fun, make him like me less. Lower my chances of getting a permanent slot.
2. Anon note to HR. Worst case: he gets taken out and the department is given over to the angry sexist I like even less.
3. Keep my mouth shut. Don't smile at his jokes but don't call him out on them either. Don't come out at work, don't talk about queer friends. Pretend it never happened and stay safe.
Fuck. The world is supposed to be better now. These kinds of calculations shouldn't be necessary.
People talk about "passing priviledge" like it isn't a different kind of torture. like I don't have to deal with people who wink and say one way or another "you're one of us, after all, you're on /our/ side." They feel /safe/ with me, they feel /open./
I mean. I know. I don't have to risk direct violence on my person. I have a /chance/ at jobs, at housing, at survival. But only if no one finds out, only if I keep the truth of what I am buried deep inside my chest and never let it out.
It would be easier if I was brave enough to burn my bridges. There are times I wish I was more visibly queer, more visibly disabled, more obviously /other/ so that this would stop happening. So that i wouldn't have to /choose/ between honesty and survival. Yeah, I'd still be fucked, but at least I wouldn't have done it to myself.
(it feels like there's a monster buried in my chest, something pounding at my rib cage. If people see they'll put me down like the beast I am, so I have to keep it locked away.
sometimes I wish the monstrosity was on the outside, where everyone could see. Maybe I'd die but at least I'd be free for a little while. At least it would be /over/, instead of this terrified waiting. The sword's gonna drop, one day or another, and it's so exhausting waiting for it.)
fuck.
*rubs eyes*
I need this job. I need health insurance or I will die. I need to be able to get therapy, I need to be able to buy meds, I need to be able to fix my teeth. I have bills. This is my first engineering job - if I fuck this up, I'll be pretty damn fucked for a while.
It's legal to be fired for homosexuality in this state.
I need this job.
And that means not picking fights with supervisors who seem to like me otherwise. That means not rocking the boat, at least not until I can be sure that I'm not gonna get thrown overboard for it. That means smiling and playing along nicely and goddamn it
I feel like I coward. Don't I have a duty to my siblings? Don't I have a duty to confront this shit where I find it? If I let is slide, aren't I a part of the problem?
Fuck.
Okay. Options.
1. Talk to him about it. Risk outing myself. Come off as "over sensitive" and no fun, make him like me less. Lower my chances of getting a permanent slot.
2. Anon note to HR. Worst case: he gets taken out and the department is given over to the angry sexist I like even less.
3. Keep my mouth shut. Don't smile at his jokes but don't call him out on them either. Don't come out at work, don't talk about queer friends. Pretend it never happened and stay safe.
Fuck. The world is supposed to be better now. These kinds of calculations shouldn't be necessary.
People talk about "passing priviledge" like it isn't a different kind of torture. like I don't have to deal with people who wink and say one way or another "you're one of us, after all, you're on /our/ side." They feel /safe/ with me, they feel /open./
I mean. I know. I don't have to risk direct violence on my person. I have a /chance/ at jobs, at housing, at survival. But only if no one finds out, only if I keep the truth of what I am buried deep inside my chest and never let it out.
It would be easier if I was brave enough to burn my bridges. There are times I wish I was more visibly queer, more visibly disabled, more obviously /other/ so that this would stop happening. So that i wouldn't have to /choose/ between honesty and survival. Yeah, I'd still be fucked, but at least I wouldn't have done it to myself.
(it feels like there's a monster buried in my chest, something pounding at my rib cage. If people see they'll put me down like the beast I am, so I have to keep it locked away.
sometimes I wish the monstrosity was on the outside, where everyone could see. Maybe I'd die but at least I'd be free for a little while. At least it would be /over/, instead of this terrified waiting. The sword's gonna drop, one day or another, and it's so exhausting waiting for it.)