This is what the inside of my head looks like sometimes

[splinteredstar]

I think the anticipation for the new semester is starting to get to me - the stress, the staring at the ceiling until four a.m. because I can't sleep for nerves. Oversleeping because I don't want to face the new day. Not wanting to sleep because my dreams are vivid and gripping and leave me confused as to which bits were dream and which bits were memory. Going around with a headache because the images in my dreams refuse to get out of my head. Wondering if I'm starting to slip towards losing it again - wondering if normal people have stray thoughts about whether or not their pets have been replaced by android spies, if other people feel like the inside of their head is full of fog.

It's been a weird day, if you haven't noticed. I get into these moods, sometimes - when feels like sanity is a little weaker - when I start wondering if I'm not just hallucinating everything, dreaming while standing up. I can usually defeat it with logic - but I worry for the day when logic isn't enough. It's a delicate balance, keeping myself insulated from the world enough to be able to stand it at all (Watch me in a crowded store without my headphones sometime. I twitch.) and yet not so removed that I forget about reality, so removed that the world is gone.

My brainmeats are complicated.

Comments

[edmondia.livejournal.com]

Everybody feels that way once in a while, especially if they're stressing about stuff. I've been thinking that it might be a good idea for you to try looking up some relaxation exercises--breathing, yoga, or even just running or something--it might help take the edge off.

[starsplinter.livejournal.com]

Yeah, I'm a ball of freak-outs aren't I? I think I will, really - it can't hurt, at this point..

*hugs* Thanks.

[nenya85.livejournal.com]

Nothing useful to say except HUGS! Remind me to tell you my own private twilight zone scenario next time we chat.

BTW, your description of reality sounds a little like the MiW.

More Hugs!

[starsplinter.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I'm feeling better now, thanks. My head was just a really strange space yesterday, so. And yeah, it's funny the things our brains can cook up sometimes...

...*headtilt* I suppose it does, rather. Well, he has always been the easiest one to write of the lot...

*snuggles*