I am out of feelings

[splinteredstar]

This is what happened this year, roughly in chronological order: 

-My then girlfriend making an utter shit show of her life
-Switching majors
-Grandmother dying Christmas morning.
-Getting kicked in face by new major
-Mom having a cancer scare
-Breaking up with girlfriend
-Getting a new job
-Getting into a car accident
-Having panic attacks at work
-Helping brother move on short notice after his roommates threatened to kill him
-Getting into *another* car accident
-Funeral for Grandmother
-Finding out my best friend had a major depressive episode (that I didn't know about) that's still fucking her over
-Taking physics with the professor my girlfriend cheated on me with
-Getting kicked in face by major again
-Mother losing job
-Finding out I failed calculus


That is twelve months. And I'm pretty sure I'm forgetting something.

I am out of feelings. Just. Completely out of them. I don't even have much panic left.

All I can do is keep walking.